I need to FOCUS.
The first step to focusing would probably be… not blogging right now.
I cannot list the number of times I have messed up this current experiment. All these little things– they add up.
What am I doing? I’m working on some IHC stuff for my/my graduate student’s project. Because my graduate student doesn’t specialize in IHC, he recommended that I learn some stuff from a different graduate student in the lab, G. G is really good at IHC stuff, so he’s been helping me, and I’ve been helping him.
But oh, it really sucks when other people find out how much of a failure you are.
I’m pretty sure G thinks I’m a pretty big goofball because I’ve messed up this experiment so many times. Oh so many times…
I’ve had to entirely scrap this current IHC project and had to start over with an entirely new set of slides. It’s a good thing M (my grad student) gave me a whole set of slides to test out different conditions with.
I wish that I was more competent. :(
G has been laughing at me, but he does know that I feel bad. Still, it hurts when he says things like, “Well, at least you’re not my student…” This is my first time working with this new IHC protocol on my own, so I guess it’s “ok” for me to mess up, but at the same time, it would be such a nice feeling to do something right on the first try…
