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Retroblog #1, April 8, 2010: And yet– and yet…

September 28, 2012


In rebooting my blog for SciLillian 2.0, I went through and made all of my previous blog posts private. Going through and reading these old blog posts again has made me appreciate just how much I have grown since starting this blog back in 2008. In some of my old posts, I sound incredibly naive, and in others, I’m actually somewhat impressed at how much insight I seemingly had into this world we call “research.”

Some of these old blog posts will be making reappearances on this new bloggy.

This particular blog post comes from my adventures as an undergraduate researcher, during a time when it seemed all of my peers, no matter who I talked to, no matter how much time they spent (or didn’t spend) in lab, no matter how much they understood (or didn’t understand) what they were working on, would tell me, “Oh yea, I’m doing research also!” It was during this time that I really started to question what it meant to do “research” as an undergraduate, because it seemed that everyone had a different opinion on the subject. I was still trying to figure out what exactly I wanted to do post-graduation, what career to choose, what path to take, what mistakes to make.

The professor I currently work with often says that he knew he wanted to make a career out of science when he couldn’t sleep at night because he would be thinking about his results from lab, or when he would wake up in the middle of the night to jot down an experiment that he planned to do.

Sometimes, the best articulation of my feelings comes through my writing. Re-reading this blog post, it makes me… happy. Right now, I’m creating a mental bookmark to remind myself to come back to this post when I have my doubts. It makes me a little proud (yea, I said it), and it gives me some reassurance. Because re-reading this blog, I get the sense that, whether I was aware of it or not, deep down, I already knew what I wanted to do with the rest of my life.

And so without further ado, Retroblog #1, from April 8, 2010: And yet–and yet…


I almost wish I hadn’t gone down that rabbit-hole—and yet—and yet—it’s rather curious, you know, this sort of life!

— Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland

Sometimes, when I talk to people (read: my peers) about science and research, I wonder how much they really care.

I’m not saying that all undergraduates in research are like this– by all means, no no no!– but there are a significant number of undergrads out there who are doing research because they feel compelled to. Not because they want to.

And therein lies the rub…

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